Monday, September 26, 2011

Gotta Start Somewhere

So I have not run or hardly walked since I first hurt my knee. I do not wear the brace too much now when I am around the house, but if I am out and about I wear it for support. I also wear it to sleep in to keep from bending it. But the last two days I have walked through the park. (wearing the brace, of course)

 It's almost exactly 1.2 miles from my door, through the Frisbee golf course with a nice walking trail and back to my door. The weather has turned cooler and I would love to be setting up some running and training schedules. But it's not happening yet! I have to start slow...I have to start somewhere. So I am trying to walk through the park every day for starters. I may try the treadmill next week and do that without the brace to see how my knee handles it.

 It drives me nuts to be sidelined like this. But there has to be time for the injury to heal properly or I might not get to run again....ever! So I am trying to be very patient and walk it out slowly - every pun intended!

Sometimes in life we become frustrated with ourselves, especially when we cannot perform like we would like to. But it will take some time to get where we want, time, patience and healing. It's not as easy as it sounds when the words just fall out of your mouth like that...and it's certainly not as fast as we want it most of the time either! But hey - no matter where we are on our life's journey, no matter what we are facing, or going get to our desired destinations...we have to start somewhere. We have to start from where we are today. So today - just think about making progress - any amount really - from where you are. Make today just a little better than yesterday.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Ugh! The Waiting...

I am not taking this injury nearly as graciously as I would like to think! I am anxious to get moving again. I want to be ready to run at least a 5K November 12. It's for the Oklahoma Brain Tumor Foundation and my family does it together for my sister. This is actually what keeps me in line right now. I am trying to be very nice with my knee and let it heal in the hopes that I can do that race with my family.

 In the meantime, I did walk 1.2 miles a couple of nights ago. This is while wearing the brace but I thought I'd get started. I hope to do that again today. Then in a couple of weeks I think the knee may be well enough to try to jog on it. I'm waiting until after 6 weeks have passed to start doing anything seriously. I hope to let it heal before I push it too much - but that is difficult. I am going to sign up for just a walk in October. It's only 1.5 miles and if I need to I can do it with the brace on too!
 I am so anxious to get back moving but I know it can be longer if I do not take the time to let my knee heal properly. How many times is this true in our lives? I cannot tell you how many people I have known who have just divorced and before you know it they are engaged to be married again. It's too fast...we have to allow ourselves to heal properly or we will be limping through life never really whole. Take time today to assess what in your life needs to be healed. Take time to honestly assess your own emotions and soul. Then sit patiently with me while we wait on God to bring us through totally healed...

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Breaking the Silence...

I know I have been quiet for several weeks. I have been sidelined by an injury. Even though I know that injuries are part of training I wanted to be "graceful" in my time of recovery. I am not too sure I have accomplished this goal. I missed my Chicago half marathon...And probably will not even attempt to run again for about two more weeks.

 The one doctor showed me the x-rays and showed me that due to a fall I had a small sliver broken off from my knee cap. The bruising was extensive and even now after 4 weeks there are tiny bruises left. The swelling isn't as bad now when I am up and around. It's getting better - but I feel dug deeper in.

 Running is like my only outlet. I guess I could try to find another one - but instead I have just been eating... now when I start running again I will have to run this all off first!! ugh!!

 I really cannot even say how disappointing it is to miss my goal race. It has damaged me from inside out and so I chose to ignore the gnawing most of the time while I wait to try to run again. But it never really goes away. Hopefully I will be up and going again and get back into shape quickly...

....from a frustrated (and sidelined) runner....