Wednesday, July 10, 2013

A Reason to Survive

Before I headed out this morning I knew it was hot. I also knew that I was pretty tired and not feeling my best, and that's not always a winning combination. But because I run when the aide got here, I ran anyway. Just over a mile and I felt very sluggish. My legs felt like they were carrying an extra 25 pounds a piece (and no I haven't gained THAT much weight! lol). I started thinking that this run was a lot like my life.

Over the last 4.5 years I have lived in what I call the furnace. Life is just one big trial; and like today's run - it can be stifling at times. I could probably use it all for an excuse and really no one would blame me. I was thinking about how my run and my life were so parallel as I was coming around mile 2. Here's pretty much my thought process: Ugh! This run is just like my life - heavy, tiring, strength-sapping and stifling hot. Lots of excuses...all of which are true - No....they are NOT excuses - they are reasons to survive!

Peter says it this way: these trials are only to test your faith, to show that it is strong are pure. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold- and your faith is far more precious to God than mere gold. So if your faith remains strong after being tried by fiery trials it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day Jesus is revealed. (NLT) As runners we know that training in the heat is actually best case scenario even though it is the most difficult -- which is precisely why it's best to train in the heat. After the heat anything is better! Which makes it one more reason to survive.

My goal today is to change my perspective about my challenges - rather than letting them be reasons to quit or give up I will make them into reasons to survive!

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Committed to Myself

Running for me seems to be about setting goals. Some of them are kept and some are not. Today as I was running in the heat I was determined to reach my newly set goals. Over the last few years I have set and made lots of goals - and set and not made lots of goals. But a couple of weeks ago it hit me real hard when I weighed in and found that I was overweight. (not a happy camper) I determined right then and there to make a difference.

You see, I eat to fill a void in my life. But over the last few weeks I realized that eating more foods may fill my tummy but it will not erase the pain of the circumstance. It's up to me to change -  and I'm committed to the journey.

By now I have earned the right to call myself a runner even though I didn't start until the year I turned 49. I've completed over 60 races - 7 of which are half marathons and one marathon ( that I crawled). Some might say that this is amazing but I still talk myself out of that. It's not really that amazing  I tell myself - I am not fast, I am not slim, I am not consistent... and so on. But then I started thinking - you know what - why talk yourself out of the wonder?  In our pious way we think that congratulating ourselves is prideful and a sin. But aren't we supposed to be doing everything as if to the Lord? And didn't Paul warn us about not comparing ourselves among ourselves? Since I am a reflection of Christ in the earth shouldn't I be the best I can be at whatever I do?

This week I committed to give myself 1 hour a day to work out. That might be running, workouts with Jillian Michael's DVDs, kick boxing or elliptical - and it might be longer than an hour many days (it'll have to be some days if I keep my training intact.) But at least one hour a day I am giving to myself to become a better runner - a better person. And it's okay to commit to ourselves - it's not evil pride!

If we think about commitment and  our Christian walk - it is a necessary component. We will not make it with our walk with Christ if we do not commit to the journey. What journeys have you committed to in life? Have you committed your life's journey to Christ? We will achieve the things we are committed to. Today I committed to myself to help myself - rather than discourage myself. It's okay to be worth it -- to yourself --