Saturday, September 12, 2015

Lots going on in my mind today. I ran a 10K this morning. It's the first I've done of this length in awhile. Overall it went very well. There was plenty of time before the race so I did a slow and easy .8 mile so my miles for the day would round out to 7. Actually, this race felt very good. I think it even surprised me. I'm getting a little faster (not really the primary focus) but I am feeling better while doing it (the primary focus)!

I'm on track for the half next month if I get to do it. Then I will keep my miles up after that to continue preparing for a full marathon. I'm pretty happy with my progress though it's been slow. Progress is progress after all.

So this week has been a rough one for me. I've gotten myself into a tight spot and I'm trying to make the best choices I can with what I have to work with. I had just about talked myself into quitting taekwondo. So a good friend came over this week and we talked it out and she got me to thinking.

It comes down to the fact that I feel like I'm no good at it. I feel old, fat and slow. The kicks are way out of my abilities and honestly I just started thinking I couldn't meet the requirements for obtaining a black belt. Seriously? It's not like testing is tomorrow.

From there I thought back to when I first became single and started back to college as a single parent of two young children. I was scared then too; and afraid of failure. I asked myself what I did. I worked harder. I knew I was at a disadvantage - just like I am in TKD. I had been out of school for years and not that good of a student when I had been in school years before. So I tightened up my belt and studied more than most felt necessary. I had to make up for the lack (which actually only existed in my own mind). I worked hard and kept my mind in the game until I got my BS in Education.

Same thing when my son had his wreck and I knew I had to make a living from home to be able to take care of him. It was a difficult situation but I kept working it until I eventually had my own business and am still eating! lol

My point is that when it gets tough - I just get tougher. I roll up my sleeves - take on the challenge and hit it hard. So..... I think I'm going to stay with taekwondo for awhile. It really fits nicely in my lifestyle and is perfect XT for running. So this week I have to double up my classes to catch up and give it the ole college try! to get where I want to be - I have to work hard...harder.

So overall I'm feeling LOTS better - feeling more healthy and more fit.... I decided today my new motto to go with my old one is : walk it or rock it - but finish it.

Every step a victory!

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